Not like the movies.

I think films have distorted my view of reality.

When something big happens in real life it takes me a very, very long time to process  the true seriousness behind it. 

As if I have to pinch myself and say "This time, it might not be okay. Everything is real. You're not going to be able to just look away or switch channel. This isn't a film, it's real life."

But until it sinks in, I'll just keep pinching myself.